ruby
Mask Wearer
never any good
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Post by ruby on Dec 28, 2010 0:06:25 GMT -6
28 December
Ever since I lost things during the trip to save Cerise, I've had these strange dreams. I think that Scott knows, but I haven't mentioned it to anyone yet. It's been years since I kept a journal, but I think that it's probably time I kept one again now. At least so that I can log the dates of these dreams.
He left today for the holidays. It will be the first New Year that I've spent without him. With any luck, nothing much will happen. Most of the school is closed down until the new year anyway, so things are quiet here, which I like. It gives me a chance to breathe and to think about the things that have been keeping me awake at nights.
I'm worried. What if I can't shut it off? What if this is the Phoenix trying to break through again? What if I'm losing my mind. Xavier always told me it was possible. That's why he worked so hard to save me, and look what happened. Maybe it's just because Scott isn't here. It's almost 2am. I should probably log what happens in these dreams. But as soon as I'm awake, the memories are fading.
All I remember is fire and screaming and I wake up in a cold sweat with Scott's name on my lips. Everything I've read about dreaming leaves me colder still. Reoccuring dreams never feature well. Time for tea.
(ha! gratuitous amusing pointer towards my icon. Is it tea? Or is it lesbian sex? ;D)
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